I’ve known I had my heart broken, been betrayed, been gaslighted, and been traumatized. I’ve even read about how the sex addict abuses and uses covert violence and nodded my head in agreement. But tonight as I looked back on just the last few years of my journals, I finally saw it for what it is. I have been abused…by my husband…for years and years and years.
Me. An intelligent, strong, dedicated woman. Abused.
I think that I truly believed that I had to power to protect myself from abuse. That I would never allow myself to be abused. And yet here I sit. A victim of domestic violence and abuse.
The worst part is seeing how he encouraged me to blame myself for the way he treated me. So sick.